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BUST IT, BABY. [30 Jun 2008|09:54am] i'm not counting on you reading this, so here goes... i dig you. i don't know why, but i do. you intrigue me. now, there are times when i don't like you and everything is 'whatever', but i think deep down inside, i do. there's about 95% of me that is certain nothing could come out of this but that 5% thinks otherwise. i feel that the times i don't like you is primarily because i don't want to get hurt by you, or rather by myself for feeling anything for you. but i know i'm not trippin when you say things or act a certain way. your actions can be interpreted in many ways, and i hate it, but i love it.   dammit. 1 comment|post comment

NEW LIFE. [18 Jun 2008|04:39pm] it's been over two years since i've last written. as i read through my past entries, i can't help but to think of how much things have changed. my mind, my life, my surroundings... everything. anyway, i wanted to write about something, but i'm at work so my time is very limited. another day! post comment

everything counts in large amounts. [23 Apr 2006|01:12pm] i've spent these last two days away from los angeles. .drinking shots of jagermeister .smoking (not too much though) .sleeping .eating .renting movies .enjoying myself i need more days like this. i need more days like this, away from you. sometimes, i'd rather not try but i know it is the key to my success in this adventure. post comment

you have only one choice. [21 Apr 2006|08:25pm] hmm... hmm... hmm... hmm... i'm kind of tired. i'm feeling uncomfortably different. as in, i notice myself changing. i haven't been as attached to situations/people/stuff as i used to be. when something happens, it happens, and i'm over it. it's a weird feeling, but i do indeed like it. whatever. (and that is exactly how it ends). i feel good. post comment

is this thing on? [28 Mar 2006|07:56am] i'm stealing the internet. besides, this world should practice the act of sharing. post comment

remember. [17 Nov 2005|10:15am] despite what happened last night, i still hate you. post comment

tingle? [14 Nov 2005|12:05pm] i'm not sure what's going on... am i taking things the wrong way or reading it in such a different manner? funny how actions can be interpreted in so many different ways. oh well, i guess we'll see. on other news, i'm not feeling well. i believe our internet here at work is going to be shut down, or at least, restricted from our floor to use. kinda sucks because i like having it around. geez, i can't get that look you gave me out of my mind. post comment

bela lugosi's dead. [11 Nov 2005|01:15pm] i'm dead. post comment

just a quickie [10 Nov 2005|04:40pm] i love my job. i'm digging the apartment (even with all the 'excess baggage' it may come with). i figured my future (still a bit tentative but sounding real good to me)... i want to get into production or game development. what else? things aren't bad at all. not so much anyway. post comment

tu mama me ama. [15 Oct 2005|09:33pm] screw it. post comment

fortsetzen. [08 Oct 2005|11:14am] i am in love again. (well, not entirely, and maybe not even close but i feel a little something. let's emphasize the word little. i'm still keeping my guard up.) we spoke for a cool minute today. i got to know him a little better. i found out he is 21, birthday is january. i always thought he was 25 or something. he's so hot. and i know some old feelings are coming back. they're old for a reason. post comment

the hand that feeds. [02 Oct 2005|02:17am] i saw nine inch nails tonight. beautiful. (i spent 200 bucks though all day. conclusion: well worth it.) post comment

let me hear you say this shit is bananas. [30 Sep 2005|01:00pm] it's been a while since i've updated but granted the times i am home, i am not awake or preoccupied. but it still remains that i, out of all my wonderful friends, am the only one who updates frequently. tsk tsk, ya'll. haha... so i believe i am going to the nine inch nails concert tomorrow. this should be exciting. i hope we get good seats. i bought myself a new cellphone. i cannot wait for that to come in the mail on monday. hmm, i don't feel like this. post comment

your eyes tell the story. [20 Sep 2005|09:14pm] i took the long way home today... aka, the streets. i contemplated on getting gas and decided i would do so before leaving to work. i get home and smoked a bowl. i open the door to my apartment (from my garage)... and there go the lights. yes, my power went out. so, i made a sandwich and ate some ice cream. i was on the phone for a bit and then fell asleep around eleven. i woke up and my parents were home and it was five-ish in the afternoon. i passed out... and it was good. it's nine twenty and i need to get gas before i leave. bah... i feel lazy. post comment

[18 Sep 2005|11:36am] it happened, again. the mind fuck. so, you know what i did? i smoked myself out, not too much, just enough to get by. it worked. i got home, came online, was gonna play doom [tres] but got scared, so i quit, ate, and then watched kung fu hustle (in thai and in which was hilarious), with my parents... and ate some more. life is good... but i don't want to do this everyday. post comment

wonderland. [17 Sep 2005|09:56am] i've been thinking a lot about things... and a lot of things i sure don't need to be thinking of. shake my head, clear my mind... i don't need that shit. i thought i did, but i know i don't. post comment

pucker up and kiss the asphault now. [15 Sep 2005|12:05pm] before, i had more of a desire to blog, and mind you i still do but i lack the energy. i still love work though. i can feel it creeping upon me... the feeling of getting bored, or just getting too tired of it. i don't want to... but check it, i'm going to apply to EA Games after this job. i hope i get that job too. i just want to pay off my bills, then work for spare change... and save! you know, it'd be nice to get what you want, so if i save after all these bills (well, i'm going to try and put aside a few bucks every check for either saving or just emergency) then i'd be able to pay off my car faster, help my parents pay off their bills, and get the things i want... i hope it all works out. i'm loving it. every single bit. post comment

bottles in an iv loitering. [14 Sep 2005|10:04am] hungry... tired... hungry... tired... god, i am KILLING myself... but i love it. <3 it's much more rewarding than it feels. post comment

must i lie? [13 Sep 2005|10:06am] i rear ended someone today and i hope we won't have to go through insurance for such minor damage... my license plate scratched some paint off his bumper. *sigh* i'm stupid. post comment

send transmission to the one armed scissor. [12 Sep 2005|03:23pm] i want to make it clear, though, that i am no one to say anything about anyone nor the events of this world. i understand also that my views are not going to be accepted by everyone but can only hope that they will be respected. i do not want to argue nor debate over anything, this is simply a place to let shit out. the things i've said and feel are all from observation and thoughts. post comment

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